Thursday, June 30, 2005

with the intent of murder.

i threw my waste paper basket out of my window whilst trying to kill this irritating cockroach.

then, my mother made me climb out of the window onto the awning to retrieve the basket. thankfully, the offending cockroach was nowhere to be found.

haha, comic relief for today...!

close-up.

this morning, ku and i submitted our scrapbook pages to the SPH building in toa payoh. since the scrapbook contest only required us to submit three pages, we made only three. typical practicality.

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page 1 - peking haunting : three guys, two weeks, one city. we decided use "two weeks" instead of "two girls" since ku and i don't appear in any of the photos. the photos were photoshopped by watson, with only one person in colour for each photo.

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page 2 - the great wall! and the little men who crack me up.

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page 3 - chuan (boats). completed entirely by ku. i think it's gorgeous.

we met miss hui at art friend brahs basah complex to exchange one of the gifts vanessa and i bought for her.

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and, we had lunch with edith and sera, our best 2unity pals!

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i now present act-cute poses number 1 to 7, featuring miss seng qianru seraphina.

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my goodness! :) anyway i have to start packing for my switzerland trip with the pods soon. can hardly wait!

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

fix me.

deep down, i am not a nice person. i use people, then i stop to wonder why they use me. i hurt people, then i cry when they hurt me. i allow myself to drift away from the people i care for, then i worry that we will never be the same again.

i do deserve this.

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

birthdaisies part II, and scrapbooking.

yesterday night was simply amazing. gosh, we must have talked for hours in sheraton towers' lazy lounge, on everything... boyfriends, girlfriends, teachers, school, work, the past, present and future. being with sngs folks gives me the warm, comfortable feeling of being truly home. :)

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my cellulose cell wall looking delectable.

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the sistas! aimei, cel and xuamy.

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hwa chong folks- me, xuamy and vi.

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the birthday girl with vi and i.

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alison, cel and i.

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four of us!

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with ali.

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the besties, cel and ali.

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with the gorgeous orchids in the lobby.

i realise i haven't explained myself regarding the scrapbooking. ku, watson and i are joining this straits times scrapbooking contest regarding our china trip. we had a ball of a time today! and the "little men" all over the great wall really crack me up...

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so cute right? photographs of the finished product soon.

birthdaisies!

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happy nineteenth birthday to the lovely lady in pink, miss celene hui!

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with the present vi and i bought.

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with vi!

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the sngs connection! from left- me, alison, vi, cel, xuamy and aimei.

more photos and text to come, when i'm feeling less tired. another full day of scrapbooking awaits!

Sunday, June 26, 2005

speed of sound, coldplay.

Ideas that you'll never find,
All the inventors could never design.
The buildings that you put up,
Japan and China all lit up.
The sign that I couldn't read,
Or a light that I couldn't see,
Some things you have to believe,
But others are puzzles, puzzling me.

All that noise, and all that sound,
All those places I got found.
And birds go flying at the speed of sound,
To show you how it all began.
Birds came flying from the underground,
If you could see it then you'd understand.
Ah when you see it then you'll understand.


and i'm off a-scrapbooking with ku and watson today. make me smile. :)

Friday, June 24, 2005

batman returns?

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batman begins in 2005, although he has somewhat already returned in a 1992 film. and the silly cow tan actually asked for "two tickets to batman returns, please." my goodness.

i realise superhero movies always leave me starry-eyed, because they conjure up within me memories of watching the cartoons as a child and all these other secret wants... i really loved 2000's x-men, because i've always wanted to be storm! and spiderman was just the endearing everyman you could empathise with. enough said, superhero movies in recent years have all been good fun.

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before sunrise (1995) was simple, and romantic. it also reinforced my belief that people tend to behave differently when in a foreign place. suddenly, the senses are heightened, the possibilities are amplified and romance with a stranger becomes an interesting prospect. things that don't happen to you when you're walking along a street in singapore. (for a good demonstration of the point i'm trying to bring across, check out lost in translation.)

"After tomorrow morning we'll probably never see each other."
"Well, who says relationships have to last forever?"

perhaps it was only the lure of an idea that led the main characters to spend that fateful, gorgeous day in vienna together. the movie doesn't deny this either, but i must admit i've never been more enthralled listening to a mere exchange of words. and yes, just one serendipitious moment can make a day that bit more special. a powerfully emotive experience, this was.

now, for before sunset.

Thursday, June 23, 2005

can't help but love you, no?

I didn't ask for it to be over, but then again, I never asked for it to begin. For that is the way it is with life, as some of the most beautiful days come completely by chance. But even the most beautiful days eventually have their sunsets. Everything changes eventually, that's just the way life is and you have no control over it. Like, suddenly, people who you think are always going to be there, they disappear. You know, people die and they move away and they grow up.

dinner yesterday with ku and the fifth wife zhuanghui was... reminiscent. i understand i've been using that word more than necessary but please consider the limitations of my vocab! anyhow it was just like old times. was treated to another scrumptious meal at my favourite chinese restaurant, nanbei, courtesy of wupo. it seems that whenever we go shopping, it's always him in the fitting room trying clothes we picked out for him. i must say, i love striped polo tees on guys! these times will become few and far between, now that we're starting school in august and he'll be leaving for the hallowed halls of oxford university to read law.

and typically, i am resistant to change.

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

reel life.

was startled awake this morning from my horrible dream, the details of which should never be repeated anywhere. my dreams have been dark of late, what with people dying and having monstrous physical afflictions. what is the root of this? what am i thinking in my subconsciousness? can sigmund freud help?

was amused too to find the old rafflesians' association car decal displayed prominently on my dad's windscreen. he apparently signed up for lifetime membership at $320.00! which will seem odd when you consider that he hasn't stepped into RI for the past thirty odd years, because the bishan campus holds no memories for him. if hwa chong ever moved, i know i would be devastated... but we're so neatly and cosily planted in bukit timah now that i think any movement would be unlikely.

i guess it's nice to go for "class of 2003" gatherings and be reminded of the past once in a while. perhaps i will join the hwa chong alumni too, just sometime in the future.

Monday, June 20, 2005

paper bag, fiona apple.

I was staring at the sky, just looking for a star
To pray on, or wish on, or something like that
I was having a sweet fix of a daydream of a boy
Whose reality I knew, was a hopeless to be had

But then the dove of hope began its downward slope
And I believed for a moment that my chances
Were approaching to be grabbed
But as it came down near, so did a weary tear
I thought it was a bird, but it was just a paper bag

Hunger hurts, and I want him so bad, oh it kills
'Cause I know I'm a mess he don't wanna clean up
I got to fold 'cause these hands are too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love

[xXx] accidentally in love.

reading some of the juniors' blog posts put me in a reminiscent mood of sorts.

a while before stepping down in may last year, i posted a series of photographs i called the "council-photo(s)-of-the-day." it all started with this picture, the council dance tee.

i decided to link all of them for my own reference, and for yours too if you're interested in taking a trip into our past.

  • scandalous during the O1 2004 campfire.
  • O1 2004 song session.
  • O1 2004: pretty colours.
  • with the unfinished MAF centrepiece.
  • with the O1 banner.
  • clothes maketh the man! justin and mik.
  • michelle, pretty as a picture. MAF 2003 prep.
  • the bouncers!
  • choon at prom 2003.
  • almost all the ecaco and snr girls, very sweet!
  • dance i/cs at the chinese new year celebrations, january 2004.
  • the thirtieth teachers' day committee!
  • weiqi and ku at the leadership camp.
  • mik and dust at CNY 2004.
  • cheryl and i with aspiro news september 2003.
  • the council guys, not always this dysfunctional.
  • painting the council room, june 2003.
  • MAF 2003: the light fantastic.
  • xuhan, our very own MAF emcee.
  • the thirtieth exco.
  • the thirtieth ecaco.
  • when ningqi fractured his finger!
  • the thirtieth snr.
  • water polo finals 2004.
  • track and field finals 2003.
  • hoisting the MAF centerpiece.
  • waiye, !*boOo*!
  • ke pa ji! the scary chicken!
  • welco-ians.
  • ring of roses at the leadership camp, june 2003.
  • justin, wenyuan and cheryl at a MAF rehearsal.
  • zhi en and chong with the old council tee.
  • catching some shut-eye during the leadership camp, june 2003.
  • the thirtieth pubco.
  • fauziah and benjy, O1 programme i/cs.
  • circle of friends, council room clearing in june 2003.
  • open house 2003- zenith: beyond what you can see.
  • goofing around, leadership camp 2003.
  • sharing a moment at eleco 2004.
  • not really construction workers! prepping for MAF 2003.
  • the siamese twins aaron and zhiqiang. chrisco 2003 at mik's house.
  • exco guys, JTS 2003.
  • zhiqing and weiqi, JTS 2003.
  • cake of the moment, JTS 2003.
  • our yihua! JTS 2003.
  • hwa chu looking at? campfire i/cs for O1.
  • preparing to hoist the MAF centerpiece.
  • slippery slope, anderson camp 2003.
  • marcus offers you a rose, prom 2003.
  • the 30th and 31st at water polo finals 2004.
  • and the last.

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  • Sunday, June 19, 2005

    plug!

    here's my plug for nat's new business...

    visit

    for some very pretty bags. :)

    Saturday, June 18, 2005

    at the edge of the ocean.

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    today, the thirtieth council went to east coast park! me, pea, ku and weif.

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    zhuanghui in his guru-with-a-green-army-towel getup.

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    weif and waiye. very sweet!

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    the guys after soccer. there was a scurry to put on some shirts before this photo was taken.

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    almost all the girls...

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    and almost everyone, photo from ku.

    the turnout wasn't fantastic, but we had fun anyway. the next big meetup should be at hwa chong's mid autumn festival celebrations, also affectionately known as MAF. i suppose some of the councillors would have left singapore by then, the thought of which makes my heart rather heavy.

    now i wonder why i'm home early while they're all out in town. maybe i just like being at home, watching my dvds and reading my books.

    yesterday night was spent at marcus's with mari, eating hawker food and watching tweenage movies like "the princess diaries II." the days of continuous slacking, pigging out and dvd watching are going to end all too soon. one and a half months!

    There’s only one way I know how to do this
    Stay here and help me live through this
    And I’ll always be the one you knew

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    Friday, June 17, 2005

    about a boy.

    from gettyimages.com
    'tis only i who can lose my heart so easily and completely.

    a tiny blip.

    what i need now is some sleep... some good, old-fashioned rest in bed. the quickest remedy for heavy thinking, since i've sworn off alcohol.

    what i need is also to stop analysing the new life that i'll be starting in approximately one and a half month's time. i need to stop wondering what my classmates will be like, whether i should go for medicamp, whether i'll regret not living on campus, what cca i should join, whether i'll be lonely all over again, whether i'll fail out of school, whether i'll lose contact with my close friends not in NUS, whether i'll be too busy for anything but study and lastly, whether i'll be myself anymore.

    i do realise i sound (i am?) terribly self-absorbed. i've been given the opportunity to read the course i've always wanted to, and a chance at the life i've always dreamt of. perhaps it is typically me to overanalyse everything, however silly it feels.

    yes, the bum needs to sleep.

    Tuesday, June 14, 2005

    adagio.

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    ever set your eyes upon something so quaintly chinese? the quintessential beijing hutong, photos from this gorgeous site. i want to live in one somewhere in the future! the photographer has an excellent beijing photolog too, so do visit.

    this morning, i woke up and decided i needed more hepatitis b antibodies. thus, i went down to NUS to buy some! well, not exactly. my hep b screening test detected only 44.7 mIU/mL of hep b antibodies in my bloodstream. i apparently need 100 mIU/mL to be safe in medicine, so i got my booster shot done. anyway, i half suspect paranoia will take over eventually and i'll get vaccinations for everything.

    we're going to switzerland! :) oh how dandy it sounds.

    Monday, June 13, 2005

    the jacket off his back.

    Your soul is oftentimes a battlefield, upon which your reason and your judgment wage war against your passion and your appetite.

    put so simply and perfectly, kahlil gibran's words always melt my heart.

    what happens when you break a gift from someone you care about alot? a gift is just a gift, but the underlying thought behind it may mean so much more. what do you do then? tell the person, or keep your silence? i guess i deserved to be pricked by the tiny shards of glass i tried to pick up. i deserved too, my tears flowing like a spoilt child's.

    in an attempt to become more well-read before school starts, i have endeavoured to read more intelligently. sample my reading list from the library today.

  • the nothing that is : a natural history of zero by robert kaplan
  • brave new world by aldous huxley
  • the rise and fall of the third chimpanzee by jared diamond
  • great feuds in medicine by hal hellman

    my trip to china made me realise how truly bad my mandarin is. bearing this in mind, i even tried to browse the chinese literature section, before my head started to spin. looking back on life in sngs, perhaps it was good that we were forced to read chinese books during the holidays. i must admit that i enjoyed you jin's ren shen zi lu (the journey of life) back then, but it may be different for me now. considering my dismal standard of mandarin, perhaps i should do something about it. what, then?

    went to little india for lunch yesterday with ku and hernghuei. passed hh the tie we bought for him in beijing. i forgot to photograph it, but i think it will be excellent for picking up girls with. :) we met so many councillors in town later in the day, including marcus, weifang, mik and pea.

    am going for a wedding dinner later. my dad's cousin, whom i don't think i've ever spoken to before. the thing about being a member of the (somewhat) immediate family is that you're obliged to turn up for such events even though the host knows nothing about you beyond the fact that you're genetically related. guess i'll spend the time talking to my cousins.

    holiday plans of places far and away, distant lands of beauty and mysticism are all that fill my mind nowadays. may it be true. :)
  • Saturday, June 11, 2005

    the world forgetting, by the world forgot.

    When the world keeps spinning round
    My world's upside down
    And I wouldn't change a thing
    I've got nothing else to lose
    I lost it all when I found you
    And I wouldn't change a thing
    No, you and I, I wouldn't change a thing


    the trip back to hwa chong yesterday was different from all my previous trips. perhaps it was because there was no dust (also known as xizhen) in the teachers' room to surprise. or perhaps i finally grew out of my childish want to see everyone. mari, tee and i were delighted to spot mrs lee, our dear chem teacher who was back for remedial lessons. her knack for observing our behaviour in class including shauna's various sitting positions had us in peals of laughter. i almost miss going to school.

    watched mr and mrs smith in the evening. i guess the script doesn't really matter when you can spend two hours just looking at two dangerously gorgeous people. lead actors with that much sex appeal should not be allowed near each other!

    one year after proclaiming that i wanted to watch eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, i finally did, thanks to a whole stash of dvds from marcus. i found the concept of being able to erase specific people from your memory particularly charming, and probably quite useful. but i suppose that once walked through these memories, like the lead character was, there would be too many i wanted to keep after all.

    Friday, June 10, 2005

    when in doubt, pray.

    tis late, again! (and this late night rambling is likely to get old after a while...)

    met up with waiye, weif (whom i haven't seen in a while) and ku (whom i see all the time) for a nice, comfy dinner at ang mo kio. think there's going to be a council party soon, before those going overseas pack their bags and before the rest of us get ready for school here. yay, it will be so nice to see everyone again. :)

    returning to good old hwa chong later today to collect my cert. i must stop getting so excited about going back, or i'll end up disappointed again. school just feels strange when the faces are unfamiliar. now, how silly it is!

    Thursday, June 09, 2005

    quantum weirdness.

    i deleted one of my posts yesterday because it sounded too frivolous, something i definitely wasn't feeling.

    if an electron can be in two places at once, why can't you?

    am going to pour through the new issue of discover on my long journey to NUS today. glad i was able to acquire it furtively from the mail before dad did.

    i need an something new, something different, something that piques my interest.

    and by the way, today marks one year from when i first started blogging at the tea leaf. what a long way we've come.

    Wednesday, June 08, 2005

    what the hell.

    Oily marks appear on walls where pleasure moments hung before. The takeover, the sweeping insensitivity of this still life...

    tis late, and the song which jan sent me is on constant playback.

    and i am trying to come to a decision, trying to make the most of my time, to make the most of myself.

    but i don't know. it has become apparent that my choices are often silly and schoolgirlish.

    i wonder.

    Monday, June 06, 2005

    bag lady!

    here's the gold GAP bag i got jan to check out for me.

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    i think i'll be getting the bronze instead though. as much as i love gold, it does look a tad too flashy.

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    today was spent job-hunting with mari, or rather hunting for a job for mari. met minyee at borders, who got out of her house just because it was too hot. on the contrary, i like to laze in bed piggishly when it gets too hot. i guess i will be slacking until school starts. am fervently hoping that my dad will make his business trip to seattle and vancouver so i can tag along! but if not, melbourne it will be. both sound like exciting prospects... :)

    Sunday, June 05, 2005

    tibet, tibet : an advertisement.

    reconsidering, since people who are uninformed will never be able to appreciate why i truly want to visit tibet, i shall take the ad down.

    go stuff yourselves with porkchops. :(

    Saturday, June 04, 2005

    peking haunting.

    the photolog as promised. it's still missing one or two important photos but that doesn't matter for now. i hope this doesn't take too long to load!

    day 1 : landing in peking!

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    this was at the entrance of the yonghe lama temple.

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    love tree-covered walkways! how absolutely romantic.

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    ku with "the bigger bells in china."

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    next, we visited beihai park. i think the emperors used to stay here during the winter, hundreds of years ago.

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    lunch at yaxiu shopping centre! we met the seniors here (bargaining away) but i don't have a good picture of that. here is ku with our lunch of twenty jiaozis, at only about 8 RMB. we ate about twelve before giving up.

    day 2

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    the summer palace, or yuheyuan.

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    the sun was scorching, but we stopped for a photo op with the chimera.

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    this looks very poetic, doesn't it?

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    on to tiananmen square...

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    one of the important city gates. taking a photo of it was supposed to bring us good lucker, as with many other things in china.

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    outside chairman mao's mausoleum. we spent about ten minutes queueing, then shuffled past his crystal coffin within a minute. (no photography allowed inside.)

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    ku and me on tiananmen square.

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    photo op with chairman mao!

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    my love is like a red, red rose bush.

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    you can apparently see this portrait from every part of tiananmen square. interesting.

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    the forbidden city or zhi jing chen!

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    zhi jing chen was basically station after station of structures that looked like this, each having a different purpose. we must have walked for three hours.

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    met up with benjy's family for dinner at this japanese restaurant. they were just so sweet and hospitable... and the food was fantastic!

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    oh so cute! brian with his book "great buildings."

    day 3

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    pointing at some part of the great wall at badaling.

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    no sitting, please!

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    this was actually taken considerably high up so the crowd had (somewhat) lessened.

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    looking down.

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    ku amidst the madding crowd of people.

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    that's me, always climbing gaps...

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    love this pic! she looks adorable, standing at the base.

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    outside the ming tombs area. which was quite a farce, if you ask me. all we saw was a mound, underneath which lay a tomb which hadn't been excavated yet. sheesh.

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    dinner with watson, dennis and thongkai, from the 28th council.

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    we stuffed ourselves silly with jiaozis, since the guys ticked almost everything on the menu. i love jiaozis! by far the best food we had in china.

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    tiananmen square was cordoned off at night, so our initial plan of going there to take photos was foiled. we walked down changan street instead. this is a photo of the official countdown timer to the 2008 olympics! very cool!

    day 4

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    at the temple of heaven. kudos to ku, this is a beautiful photo.

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    waving goodbye to beijing, we left for chengde in the afternoon, a ridiculous five hour drive.

    day 5

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    bi shu shan zhuang : the summer resort.

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    we got into a beeeeg boat!

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    ... and stopped to eat large rocks.

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    a world heritage site!

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    outside the little potala palace. i must say china has imitations of everything...

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    right to left!

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    in the evening at wangfujing, beijing's orchard road.

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    valen teno guci! we sell everything!

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    we also explored lotus lane, beijing's clarke quay.

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    this starbucks looked rather wrong.

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    and this bar looked like indochine!

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    show me the money, and i'll show you the vodka. absolut was having some promotion!

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    hot dog!

    day 6

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    ku and i outside the entrance to the underground city, this network of underground passages which included a school, a hospital, a library and other what-nots. very interesting, but freezing cold inside.

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    a dodgy chinese poster we spotted somewhere around that area. yi zhen jiu ling? i'll take my chances.

    day 7

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    we visited the famous bei jing da xue with the guys who had just returned from shandong!

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    places, everyone! graduating seems like such a wonderful thing... i want to be that happy.

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    the obvious way of transport here is to ride your bicycle. isn't this cute?

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    the gorgeous lake, which was really huge. beida is full of scenic spots to rest and dream the day away.

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    don't know what building this was, but i thought it was pretty. the entire beida was the stuff dreams are made of. i love chinese architecture!

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    ku and i in front of a stone tablet we didn't understand.

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    whilst having lunch at oriental plaza, wangfujing, watson decides to promote his own brand of drinking water.

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    candid shot, haha.

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    just one more before we say goodnight and go! :)

    (with thanks to ku and thongkai for some of the photos.)