Monday, November 28, 2005

evil little molecules.

if small molecules, enzymes and little reducing equivalents like our friends NADH and NADPH had arms and legs, i'm quite sure they would be running away from me now.


Saturday, November 26, 2005

shh, listen.

it's incredible how listening to frou frou or imogen heap as she is now known never fails to teleport me to switzerland immediately. perhaps it's the sweet memory of listening to "it's good to be in love" on pearline's mp3 player, and singing along.

sunbeam, stop tugging me. pull that door shut quietly. darling, what are you doing? we don't have time for this.

i want to sit with you atop a ferris wheel in zurich, gaze at the earth beneath us and whisper, how sweet it is.

all i want for christmas.

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don't care about presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you

i look at the time, 'tis 2.25am and so many people are up late studying. this isn't really irregular at all, of course, it being the exam season. and in medical school, well this happens on a daily basis. it doesn't help then, that i am not yet exhausted tonight, but my digestive/ absorptive rate has dropped to zero. i've been so tempted to watch new CSI episodes... oh well, maybe tomorrow. i mean, later today. am feeling a dull ache in my trapezius already. i need to crawl into bed, now now now!

there are still many things i'll have to get better adjusted to... these few days (and months?) are going to teach me that. :) oh, for christmas, and the summer.

Friday, November 25, 2005

i've got a plan to get us out of here.

You've got a fast car
I want a ticket to anywhere
Maybe we make a deal
Maybe together we can get somewhere

I remember we were driving, driving in your car
The speed so fast I felt like I was drunk
City lights lay out before us
And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder
And I had a feeling that I belonged
And I had a feeling I could be someone
Be someone, be someone

Thursday, November 24, 2005

oh glory, i'll fly away.

nineteen, and happy. :)


(update at 7.31pm)

oh my, greenday was so fantastic! i haven't had a cake in years and years so this year is special! and a green one, at that! :) i am so floored! thank you so much huilin! and thank you all- 3stanis, OG mates, hwachong and hc council pals like 03s75, 78 club members, raymond, waiye, weifang, henghui, dust, husband, zhui, counsellor, stephrene, nat, andy, cow, thongkai etc, friends from sngs like bestie (love the picture!), celene, vi, xuamy, shantelle, yun, assorted medicine associates, people from elsewhere, etc etc. bean loves you, you know. :) will post photos soon! meanwhile, i must really work harder.


Tuesday, November 22, 2005

got your heart in a headlock.

ah nice, charmingly cold weather for a singaporean night! perfect for curling up with a good book, head cradled in a comfy pillow, a warm cup of coffee on the side.

but CAs are in less than a week! and all the non-medical literature i've read recently is this ten-year-old edition of tintin!

now here i am getting distracted from my netter's, letting my thoughts wander to faraway, wondrous things...

back to earth, bean!

let me know that you love me, let that be enough.

ooooh i want to keep the members of jay of clay, so they can sing to me all the time! and imogen heap too. yum.

Sunday, November 20, 2005

let that be enough.

a faithful friend is the medicine of life.


Friday, November 18, 2005

punch-drunk love.

completely unplanned anti-mugging day today!

tickets to harry potter and the goblet of fire, courtesy of enming. pre-birthday treat with marcus. a sweet little card all the way from deutschland. and an unexpected "hello, this is oxford!" earlier this week.

i love the 3stan-is! we've created a little kingdom of our own, with mandibular moses as our king, hoho.

thanks for keeping me smiling, despite the rusty throat from my forgetting that i was still sick and munching on yan yan biscuits.


two sleepy people by dawn's early light, and too much in love to say goodnight...

Thursday, November 17, 2005

you know down inside that i really do.

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be gone, rhinoviruses and examinations!

I know your eyes in the morning sun

I feel you touch me in the pouring rain
And the moment that you wander far from me
I wanna feel you in my arms again

And you come to me on a summer breeze
Keep me warm in your love and then you softly leave
And it’s me you need to show

How deep is your love

Wednesday, November 16, 2005


i present with a very runny nose, nausea and a general feeling of out-of-sortedness.

and i'm still awake at 1.53am! poo.

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Sitting silent wearing Sunday best
The sermon echoes through the walls
A great salvation through it
Calls to the people who stare into nowhere
Can't feel the chains on their souls

He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close as a heartbeat or a song on her lips
Someday we'll trust Him, learn how to see Him
Someday He'll call us and we will come running
We'll fall in His arms
The tears will fall down and we'll pray

I want to fall in love with You

Monday, November 14, 2005

eat me!

if you see me at holland village more often nowdays, this will most likely be the reason.

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mini chocolate rolls, $4 for ten pieces at provence bakery and cafe, 17A lorong liput.

thanks to huilin for the introduction. :)

something strange heard during prof gopal's lecture on the male reproductive system this morning :

"the moment the sperm meets the egg, life will be beautiful forever after."

altogether now. reeeeeally!

Sunday, November 13, 2005

two shots of happy, one shot of sad.

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We got too much time to kill
Like pigeons on my window sill
We hang around

Ever since I've been with you
You hold me up
All the time I'm falling down

Saturday, November 12, 2005

kiss me, out of the bearded barley.

haven't indulged in a bout of girlish shopping for a looooong time. i'd almost forgotten its therapeutic effects!

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mom came home with two tubes of clinique's impossibly glossy lippies!

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ooh they came in such a nice purple case. :)

morning, and catching up with the bestie in the heartlands. i am so grateful for you, my girl. :) and here i am, listening to summer breeze on loop.

Summer breeze makes me feel fine
Blowing through the jasmine in my mind

there's a kind of hush.

Sweet days of summer, the jasmine's in bloom
July is dressed up and playing her tune
When I come home, from a hard day's work
And you're waiting there, yes you're waiting there
Without a care in the world

probably quite inapt since we're already into november. nevertheless, still a pretty, pretty song. late, contemplative nights, odd sleeping patterns, robert m. berne and matthew n. levy, being awake but dreamy, talking to someone on a different time zone...

and meeting the best friend in the morning when the day is new. :)

Friday, November 11, 2005

winsome smiles.

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today was nice. for one thing, it started very late for me! haha. i studied in the library with zhenjin and huilin.

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wahaha. stupid!

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huilin and zhenjin! i can tell them almost anything. :)

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somebody really doesn't want to have his picture taken!

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he doesn't mind after all.

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lynette, sauyee and i met our mentor dr leong for dinner! we went to pontini, this italian place at the grand copthorne waterfront hotel. the setting was very posh!

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and the food was delicious. one of the starters, very good parma ham.

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pure decadence! my melt-in-your-mouth chocolate cake.

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lynette and her tiramisu.

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we took photos in the toilet, haha.

all right, now it's back to work. just loaded myself with caffeine, weird, cranky mugger that i am. i have every reason to smile, save for the fact that CAs begin in about two weeks... oh, and i'll call my dad in the morning.


Thursday, November 10, 2005

my dad left for australia without telling me.

urgent business. :/

Monday, November 07, 2005

Sans toi, les émotions d'aujourd hui ne seraient que la peau morte des émotions d'autrefois.

Sunday, November 06, 2005

your river does not run dry.

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this is mok kwang how. he is standing next to two photographs, one of his parents and one of himself in uniform. we are warming his house!

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there was too much food!

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with my counsellor ningyi.

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with my counsellor ningyi and great-grand counsellor alex.

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carol, wanzhen and shera.

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kenny and linna.

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haha. yuanhong, the judo king.

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wenhui, carol and linna.

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with wanzhen.

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from left- wanqin, shera, carol, linna, wanzhen and me.

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everyone! our next group photo should be at the airport before we leave for china! :)


this email message from a member of 3stan really cracked me up last night!

From: rouan tan
Date: Nov 6, 2005 12:36 AM
Subject: Re: [3stan] Suprarenal Arteries/Veins

And verily, there arose much consultation of the Moore and the Snell; and also the Netter's.

And Rouan stirred, as if from a deep sleep, and cried: "Hark! it is written in page 316 of Moore that the superior phrenic arteries branch into the superior suprarenal arteries.

"Also, the renal arteries give off inferior suprarenal arteries which supply the inferior portion of the suprarenal gland.

"And for those who are curious, the 5th lumbar vertebra is supplied by a paired branch of the median sacral artery, the terminal branch of the abdominal aorta.

"Yea! All shall be clear to those who approach Netter's Plate 256; For thine eyes shall be opened, and confusion driven out from within thy brain."

Thus spake Rouan, with the wisdom of the Textbook and Atlas.

hey, we can actually learn things from late-night wonkiness! anyway, just a note to fellow first-years, no worries if you didn't get what rouan was talking about. snell is much much less detailed than moore with regards to the suprarenal arteries, so i don't think the divisions (superior, middle, inferior) are that important. :)

Saturday, November 05, 2005

weary but i know your touch.

madeleine tan

clockwise - gladys, maddy, me, marian

madd and mari visited us at NUS today! here we are in the science canteen. i miss them so much... was really happy in spite of my school-induced fatigue. marcus is behind the camera, haha.

and i'm up now because i set my alarm for 10.30am instead of the intended 10.30pm. i must be becoming slow! oh but mok's housewarming with the yunnan folks is later today! :)

contentment, just listening to sweet praise and worship songs and a piano piece played by a friend faraway! for all its expectations, disappointments and heartache, life is beautiful and worth looking forward to.

Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name

Friday, November 04, 2005

and my arms unfold.

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this is joshua lam. he is reading a book entitled "when god doesn't answer your prayer : insights to keep you praying with greater faith and deeper hope."

argh. i'm paying the price for slacking too much this holiday. seriousness, now!

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argh. i miss you guys!

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and argh. hurry home! xiaolongbaos await us.

I'm setting the stage for the things I love
And I'm now the man I once couldn't be
Nothing on earth could now ever move me
I now have the will and the strength a man needs

It's my will, and I'm not moving
Cause if it's Your will, then nothing can shake me
It's my will, to bow and praise You
I now have the will to praise my God