Friday, April 28, 2006

love for mammals.

aileen and i watched you are my sunshine today, a very sweet korean movie that will implore you to think that love is powerful and all-encompassing. well it is, i suppose, but this blog post isn't going to be about that. instead, i shall have a nice photograph post featuring some of my favourite animals! :)

1. gorillas

2. manatees

3. pigs

4. ducks

one photo (the one above of the duck) taken by yours truly, one (no.3 of the pigs) taken by alex and the rest stolen from everywhere.

and, an amusing conversation with bestie. so glad you're here.

Thursday, April 27, 2006

happy birthday hon!

happy, happy, happiest twentieth birthday, dearest hong! may you have love, joy and friendship in your life always. we love you!

here are the 3stanis along with wenkien and joel at little india during hon's birthday lunch. many, many photos! hon exhibiting delight on sampling the cake with a nice top, hon looking resplendent in the navy blue dress we bought her, hon with a hamster, hon drinking water... haha. the girls got ourselves henna tattoos afterwards, and kaizhi gamely joined in. hope you had a great day, hong. :)

Wednesday, April 26, 2006


when bad things crop up, you can either run and hide, or stay and work it out.

i'm glad we stayed.

i'm glad my someone is you.

le petit prince.

The Little Prince went away, to look again at the roses.

"You are not at all like my rose," he said. "As yet you are nothing. No one has tamed you, and you have tamed no one..."

And the roses were very much embarrassed.

"You are beautiful, but you are empty," he went on. "One could not die for you. To be sure, an ordinary passerby would think that my rose looked just like you - the rose that belongs to me. But in herself alone she is more important than all the hundreds of you other roses: because it is she that I have watered; because it is she that I have put under the glass globe; because it is she that I have sheltered behind the screen; because it is for her that I have killed the caterpillars (except the two or three that we saved to become butterflies); because it is she that I have listened to, when she grumbled, or boasted, or even sometimes when she said nothing. Because she is my rose."

-- from The Little Prince, by Antoine de Saint-Exupery

Sunday, April 23, 2006

giving up, giving in.

People living their lives for you on TV
They say they're better than you and you agree
He says "Hold my calls for me I must go"
Says "Come here boys, there ain't nothing for free"
Another doctor's bill, another lawyer's bill
Another cute cheap thrill
You know you love him if you put in your will

Who will save your soul when it comes to the flowers
Who will save your soul after all the lies that you told, boy
Who will save your soul if you won't save your own?

there's nothing left to say, nothing left i can do.

am badly in need of a hug, but it's at times like these that i stop to ask myself... so what?

Friday, April 21, 2006

it ain't me you're looking for, babe.

Go away from my window
Leave at your own chosen speed
I'm not the one you want, babe
I'm not the one you need
You say you're lookin' for someone
Who's never weak but always strong
To protect you and defend you
Whether you are right or wrong
Someone to open each and every door

But it ain't me babe
No, no, no, it ain't me babe
It ain't me you're lookin' for, babe

the sky at sevenish today glowed a luminescent orange. tried to capture it on camera, but am still confused as to how to fiddle with the camera settings.

quiet friday nights during term-time were always greatly cherished, but i'm feeling oddly unsettled now. what can be wrong, but me?

Thursday, April 20, 2006


from left, NUS medicine folks quanyao, rose, dominic, weimin, me, kenneth, hon, joel, ian and wenkien with our glorious creation from sand.

possibly the best photo of today. wenkien during volleyball.

with the guys today, minus suriya who left early. my hair looks like grass. more photos soon!

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

you and you alone can break my fall.

today, i learnt to ice skate! i've neither skated nor rollerbladed in my life, so today was quite an experience! felt like a child learning to ride a bicycle again. :) and i realised ice-skating is a pretty heyhey (hwachong language, check) activity- since i was learning how to skate, i managed to hold the hands of all the guys in my anatomy group, and almost all the girls! hahaha. not pictured here: kenneth, moss, suriya and joel lim. i fell down eight (or was it nine?) times, so the bummmms's bum is painful now. i'm now able to move on the ice somewhat decently, i suppose. good fun, it was.

i love you 3stanis. :)

Sunday, April 16, 2006

april's smiles.

ku and i with weiwen, junior s7/ apollo faculty head.

with kahyong, pubco it director.

ellery, benjy, cheechiang and justin.

with aaron from the 28th.

miss wang, students' council teacher advisor!

the 29th and 30th pubco chairpersons! :) with yexiang.

ku, weifang and miss wang. others in the photo: benjy, justin, chong and aaron.

the thirtieth council guys at thai noodle house, before the campfire.

and lunch today at carl's junior with chewlip and guanhong. :)


eight weeks to europe, and you. i'm waiting on an angel, and i know it won't be long.

Saturday, April 15, 2006

love me if you dare.

after one year in medicine, it's nice when you can come up with your own explanations (all probably inaccurate) for some of life's little ailments. inability to sleep? might be hyperthyroidism. pain along the back of your thigh? might be sciatica. raised heart rate? possibly left heart failure, or pheochromocytoma. a general feeling of unease? you might have addison's disease. visiting the toilet too often? might be problems with vasopressin. bad breath? might be diabetic ketoacidosis.

yet, some things will perhaps never be explained. how there's always one person who is that someone. how it feels when you meet him, how you just know you've found it and that there can be no one else.

inexplicable too, the warm tears that come to your eyes whilst listening to a friend sing oasis's wonderwall, miles and miles away. and the ensuing laughter you share, because you're a loser and he's a loser and the summer is almost here.

an email comes, from a friend who promises to mambo with you and implores you to wait for her. mambo-ing, something you haven't done in almost a year but would be delighted to, for old times' sake.

someone who makes your day with her first long distance call to you, but then forgets to leave a number so you can call her back and laugh about medical school blues.

and a girl in deutschland who sends you a lovely piggy postcard, because she knows you love pigs.

it's raining outside, yet it's the kind of rain that will cease, for wondrous things are lined up for the evening. the election campfire, and meeting the 30th councillors again. just like the years before, certain events never fail to make me look to the past and smile about the future.

with all of life's uncertainties, nothing beats the feeling of loving, and being loved.

Friday, April 14, 2006

am i living it right?

I am driving up 85 in
The kind of morning that lasts all afternoon
I'm just stuck inside the gloom
Four more exits to my apartment
But I am tempted to keep the car in drive
And leave it all behind

'Cos I wonder sometimes about the outcome
Of a still verdictless life
Am I living it right
Am I living it right
Am I living it right
Why, why Georgia, why

-- why georgia.mp3 by zhuang hui wu and andre oei

you two are amazing. :)

Thursday, April 13, 2006

hwa chong.

a while ago, watson tagged me to blog about five simple pleasures i have in life. i haven't thought about it seriously yet, but i realised going back to hcjc ranks pretty highly on the list of things i can do to happify myself.

shea tan and xuamy in the hc canteen, when we popped by to say hallo to teachers.

it will always be hwa chong junior college in my heart. and no matter how hard it may seem to be brave and smile about things, i will always be happy to go back.

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

the fear you won't fall.

And I know it's easy to say
But it's harder to feel this way
I miss you more than I should
Than I thought I could
Can't get my mind off of you

I know you're scared,
That I'll soon be over it
That's part of it all
Part of the beauty
Of falling in love with you
Is the fear that you won't fall

think about all the things you've been running away from, and perhaps there was never really the need to run in the first place. things come around, eventually.

Saturday, April 08, 2006


grateful, that frank h. netter, m.d. once lived and drew beautiful anatomical pictures. the drawing above is so creepy, you wonder what the 17th century anatomists were thinking or doing with the corpses.

and man envisioned as an industrial plant by the german artist fritz kahn. very interesting.

i wonder what the point of this anatomy book by giambattista della porta is... to show that we evolved from animals?

more (creepy) anatomical drawings and medically-related art here and here.

Thursday, April 06, 2006



Wednesday, April 05, 2006

i feel so far from where i've been.

i'm home now... thinking about the last seven months.

or perhaps just the last few days, which now seem like a mad blur. i don't think i've ever studied this way before. neither do i remember ever being so stressed about the exams. talking to alex yesterday made me think differently for a moment, and it was so true and comforting.

"we're in for a marathon, not a sprint."

i hope and pray that things will go fine. right now, i need to rest my heavy head.

Monday, April 03, 2006

sleepy pills. happy pills.

today, i came close to my first breakdown in medical school.

from the doctor: sleepy, sleepy pills. finally i'll be able to relax.

Sunday, April 02, 2006

psychological medicine.