Wednesday, September 26, 2007

cee gee ayech.

i've started to grow fond of our surgery team.

a, for her stately demeanor and calm confidence.

b, for his gentle manner and careful hands during operations.

c, for his lively spirit and heart for the common man.

d, for his amusing smile and for being a friend to us.

e, for his deadpan manner and positive nature.

f, for her kindness and warmth.

g, for her seriousness and doses of smiles.

h, i, j, for being our teachers as well as our friends.


Monday, September 24, 2007

bubble girl.

these days, it's more of a lack of emotion than anything else.

i feel blank and stopped, like the dead baby in the bell jar.


no more tagboard for now. the anonymous tags were getting ridiculous. couldn't be bothered to moderate.

Sunday, September 23, 2007


with the 30th councillors (zhuanghui, andre, hernghuei, weifang, jingyi) at settler's cafe on a lovely afternoon.

be safe as you return to the UK, wupo and andy!


Tuesday, September 18, 2007


it was surreal, reading the case notes dated 27 april 1989.

she had episodes of crying and stiffening of her whole body, extension of the arms and neck. her eyes stared ahead, looking frightened, and she was unaware of the surroundings. there was crying, but no cyanosis and no frothing at the mouth.

now that i understand the words written on the yellowed pages, it brings the pain home.

there will be challenges in life, and sometimes the future may seem daunting.

it's important to realise that there are other individuals fighting everyday battles as well. people who wake up in the morning being glad that they are alive. people who care for the wounded, the unloved and the needy. people who have to pick themselves up after having lost everything.

and thus we are never alone in our anonymity.

Sunday, September 16, 2007

so lonely inside, so busy out there.

I'm sinking slowly, so hurry hold me
Your hand is all I have to keep me hanging on
Please can you tell me so I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone

If you want to, I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside, so busy out there
And all you wanted was somebody who cared

was thinking of this song on the way home today. in the music video, the scene freezes every time she tries to say something to him. a familiar feeling, that of having so much to say but being unable to.

hwa chong's mid-autumn fest (MAF) celebrations today... was rather bored at first, but the mood picked up eventually. really glad to see everyone. i wish i remembered the steps to scandalous, our council dance.

i'm not even sure what i'm feeling anymore.

Monday, September 10, 2007

a love for the world.

a love for a higher being.

a love for others.

a love for oneself.

a love for the tangible, and intangible.

a love for the little things...

through life's upheavals, we see what's truly important, and essential.

Sunday, September 09, 2007

i don't want no scrub.

places, guys.

"are we supposed to pose now?"

with appearances by ivan, tengsoon, raymond, joshua and jiacai.

Friday, September 07, 2007

0730 days.

i've been feeling so tired everyday.

but well i did get to scrub in and stitch at the end of a hernia repair today! rather happy, though i don't think i'll have the confidence to try the subcutaneous stitch. yet.

love being at home even more than ever now.